It’s time we talked about failure. If you haven’t noticed, I’ve been a bit sporadic with my posts lately, falling into a trap of excuses that, if I were more put together, I wouldn’t have. I’d have scheduled blog posts, prewritten content, woken up early, worked for every hour of the day. But I am not that person, and while perhaps I dream about one day being her, I have to accept who I am here and now. I must allow myself the grace to fail, to admit defeat, and begin again.
Let’s look at the last round of goals. September’s action list:
-Wake/get out of bed on first alarm
Keep apartment relatively clean; do dishes immediately, pick up after myself, scoop litter boxes
Continue Couch to 5K program
-Do at least three adult tasks (appointments, phone calls, emails) a week
Write/research for 2 hours every weekday
Continue blogging every weekday
-At least three job applications out every weekday
-At least one long-lost phone call a week
Five hours of reading a week
-At least one short story/poetry submission out this month
-Two spoken/written complaints a week
So, I didn’t do terribly. Last Wednesday I actually finished Couch to 5K, and I’ve now started on 5k to 10k. I’ve blogged pretty consistently (up until the last few weeks), and I’ve done well at maintaining a clean apartment, and I’ve been reading pretty much nonstop (everyone should read Cinder!). After a few set backs I’ve been fighting an uphill battle on the job front (jobs I’m qualified for are flooded with applications, and jobs I’m under-qualified for write me off quickly), but I’m attempting to turn that around and follow leads, get some temping in. Plus, I’m well into 14,000 words for NaNoWriMo (today’s word count goal is 10,000), so I’m definitely doing something with my days. Surprisingly, I haven’t been watching that much TV. Having daily goals (that can’t be procrastinated–no one wants to write 3,334 words in one day) has really helped me to prioritize. All in all, despite still being unemployed, I’m going to call this round a success. While I didn’t achieve all of my goals, I’m some big leaps past who I was a few months ago. I’m learning about myself, my limits, my abilities, my talents. We’re calling it a win.
Now for November’s action list:
-Win NaNoWriMo (and complete novel even if it runs past the the 30th)
-Continue 5k to 10k training
-Complete at least one adult task (appointments, etc) a week
-Wake up on first alarm
-At least one long lost phone call a week
-Short story submission out
-Get a source of income (temping, freelance)
-Get outside every day
-Don’t throw away any produce
I always buy so much produce (vegetarian), and almost every week I throw a decent portion of it out. Even if I don’t feel like eating it, time to get over it! No more throwing away food.
How have your goals been going? Are you getting any closer to your Future Self?